Monday, November 16, 2015


Things I will do when I feel better...

Finish painting my closet doors
Continue putting up trim and baseboards
Pick new paint colors for our bedroom
Clean up the downstairs bedroom before Christmas guests arrive
Finish shampooing the carpet downstairs
Cut up and freeze all my garden carrots
Make carrot cake
Make banana muffins
Figure out what to do for teacher gifts
Print school pictures. And dance pictures. And pictures for the frame I got last Christmas
Backup photos on the computer and put them in the cloud. Then figure out how to view them on tv
Finish Christmas shopping
Clean the aquarium
Wash the floor
Put a cucumber behind a cat while they're eating 
Winter-cleaning before Christmas decorations go up
Finish organizing my cross-stitch thread so I can start my new projects (which won't be done for Christmas...thanks stupid drugs)

Hopefully, I'll be back on track by the end of this week. I only had to take gravol twice today. Yay!

Sunday, November 15, 2015

I Quit

That's it. This is stupid. I don't have time to sit around waiting to see if the dizziness/sickness/awfulness will pass as my body gets used to this medicine. I've done NOTHING all week. I have a week and a half worth of clean laundry sitting in the living room cause I've been to sick to sit there and fold it. You know what this feels like? The all day sickness I had when I was pregnant.  I've got crap to do. Lol. Christmas is coming, things need to get done. 

So I'm not taking it anymore. I'll go back to the dr next weekend and tell him to put me back on the other stuff. Cause at least that fixed the PMS. And I'll just have to deal with the the extra weight and tiredness. 

Friday, November 13, 2015

Where I'm At

I don't even know. If you would have told me 3 months ago this is where I'd be, I wouldn't have believed you. Cause I was doing SO GOOD. I felt fantastic. Everyday I said to myself, I can't believe how good I feel. 

Maybe some backstory? 

The last few years I noticed my PMS getting worse. I went from a couple days of short-tempered grumpiness to almost 2 weeks worth. That's a big chunk of time to spend being grumpy. But the problem was a bit worse than that. Cause what I felt for at least a week every month was out of control rage. And the feeling like everything was spinning out of control. So I went to the doctor. Cause it was time to do something about it. My doctor prescribed a very low dose anti-depressant to be taken everyday. He said it would take about 3 months to build up and really find out if it would work. But after the first month it was working. And it was fantastic. I had energy and was productive. I even started a new job and new projects around the house. 

I think it was made better by the regular exercise I was doing and had been doing for the last year or so. My weight had been stable for a few years and I was totally fine with that. I'd been regularly exercising and eating pretty well. I knew that more changes would have to be made and I'd have to be a lot stricter if I really wanted to lose weight. But I was fine with myself. I like food. And I hate tracking and counting calories. So as long as I remained stable, I was okay with that. But one of the side effects of the anti-depressant was weight gain. And pretty soon I noticed my body hanging onto everything. Five pounds...ten pounds....after that I just stopped weighing myself. By the third month on the meds I kind of gave up. What was the point of exercising and taking care of myself if the weight was just going to pile on? It was frustrating and kind of spiralled down from there. There were other side effects too. Like extreme tiredness. By 10pm I was a zombie and at age 35 finally started drinking coffee and had to drink it throughout the day. By the time my 3 month trial was over, I wasn't feeling fantastic anymore.  So I went back to the doctor and asked if there was anything else. 

He prescribed another 3 month period on a different drug. And told me to just switch directly to the new one. Eventually I'd be taking one pill, twice a day. But I could ease up to that. Now I'm not sure if it was the new drug or a withdrawal from the old one. But I spent a good chunk of our weekend in Edmonton pretty sick. Like throwing up in the van, just leave me here in the hotel room sick. 

So that was last weekend. And my first full week on the new drug hasn't been much better. The extreme tiredness has gone away. But it has been replaced with extreme dizziness. Which makes me nauseated. So I've been taking gravol everyday. From what I've read this is not unusual and is supposed to go away as my body gets used to everything. And I'd like to stay on it for the 3 months to give it a real shot. But I'm pretty miserable. I've been crying over everything. Even stupid commercials. And the memory foam from our old bed doesn't fit on our new one. And I hate the new mattress. And Costco was out of the foam I wanted. So I had to order it online and it could take 2 weeks to get here (plus it was ridiculous expensive). And I'm now crying. Over a mattress. 

So this is where I am. I'm a mes. 

Monday, November 09, 2015


Oh NaBloPoMo. You defeated me again. Last thing I remember I started a post on Thursday maybe? And then my iPad died. I meant to finish it later. But I forgot and the next thing I know it's Monday. 

I have no idea what I started writing about. Lol. 

Even under the best circumstances I probably never would have made it everyday this month. We shipped the kids off to my moms on Friday and hit the road to Edmonton. Usually I do all my Christmas shopping online but figured we might as well get a big chunk done while walking around West Edmonton Mall.  Plus we saved the PST on all the stuff we were planning on getting anyways. Like the BIG present the kids are getting. Because we really need more video games in the house. About as much as we need more Lego. 

So yes, it was a good weekend. A small fortune was spent and we will not be buying each other gifts this Christmas. Cause we bought ourselves a king sized bed. Our queen wasn't cutting it with all the animals that think they need to sleep with us. 

I just remembered what I was writing about on Thursday. It involved a kitten who likes to eat anything, a rug that unravels into strings when you pull (or chew) on it, and a lot of poop. Everywhere. 

Wednesday, November 04, 2015

Well that didn't take long.

Lol. So I missed a day already. Not that surprising really. I'll do two tonight to make up for it. 

So guess who didn't show up last night. Yup. I had a pretty upset little girl this morning. I told her to write a note and put it on her door so the tooth fairy wouldn't forget again. She must have been really busy last night. She better not forget again. 

Monday, November 02, 2015

Day 2 (I really hate coming up with titles. It's the hardest part)

So how does everyone (Becky) feel about a month of daily summaries. Cause that is seriously what this is going to turn into. Lol. I lead a pretty uneventful life. For example, today I shampooed the downstairs carpet.  SHAMPOOED THE CARPET, GUYS. It really doesn't get more thrilling than that. I could post a picture of the Bissel machine I used, just to liven things up. But that would involve going downstairs. And I'm busy eating Halloween candy and drinking a chai eggnog latte. I'd take a picture of the latte cup but it's empty now. Hmm. How about a picture of the dog. She's going for a haircut tomorrow. Before and after photos! That's 2 days down. This NaBloPoMo stuff is easy. 

Sunday, November 01, 2015

Lol. Why not. It's not like anyone comes here anymore.

I don't even know where to start. It's been years. Three years to be exact. I'm not even sure if I can type something online that isn't peppered with lol's or loaded with minion stickers (I spend a lot of time on Facebook messenger).  But it's not like there's a standard to keep up here. I've never even finished a NaBloPoMo on any previous attempts (I don't think anyways...I don't care enough to go check). So why not, let's give it a shot. 

Today has been spent lounging in my old rocking chair (that should have probably been garbage dumped years ago) and playing HayDay. It's my new-old addiction. As in I had to quit playing the first time I was addicted since nothing was getting done in real life. We may be reaching that point again.  

Here's my farm...

And this has been my view for the day...

Well that wasn't so bad. Maybe I'll do this again tomorrow.